Yes, I am back. Almost a year later. I could not tell you why I stopped writing here — it could be free time, it could be lack of inspiration, or it could just be laziness. Looking back at what I have written, I can see that I have followed a very distinct path, the beginning of which is documented right here. If I ever have something which expresses who I am, in my entirety, it will be this site. Therefore, it’s sort of sad that I have left this construction unfinished. What started as a diary, turned into therapy. It’s time to heal those wounds again. So, why am I doing this?

It doesn’t matter whether I will be remembered or not. I do not want to compete with rainbows and unicorns. I am raw, uncut and uncensored. I don’t want to be called “sir” by people who are my age, don’t want to be a professional, don’t want to wear a suit every day, or overdose on plastic – it’s a false sense of comfort. I don’t want to cheer on the sidelines, become a leader or sign up for your mailing list.

“I leave symbols to the symbol-minded.”

George Carlin

(more…)

Popularity: 54% [?]

It will never cease to amaze me how thirsty people are for things like honesty, compassion and equanimity. Nothing new, it is natural for us to search for something bigger in life which will give us meaning and a reason to live. What interests me, however, is that at times like these we search for meaning in the most unnatural places imaginable.
One of the reasons why I like to criticize the mass media so much, is because everything in it looks so one sided and distinguishable (especially on television). I would say that I have spent time watching TV just as much as most people have — it is a great way to observe today’s society, because everything is just so targeted. If it is on TV then you know that there is a substantial demand for it and people are willing to dedicate their time to watch it. All of those commercials for hair loss, weight loss and enhancement pills are there because people want it. The same could be said about reality and talk shows.
Are the people in front of the cameras talking to a piece of metal, or to other human beings? It is a fascinating thing. Everything is so strictly directed, rehearsed and dramatized that I am amazed how anyone would think that any the stuff that they see on TV is real.                                                                                                  (more…)

Popularity: 44% [?]